update

i guess its time to update, and tell everyone just a little of all that has changed, and what is going on now in my life. since i have moved out here to Ca, so much is different! i no longer have teachers who truly want me to learn the most i can, they are just there because that is where life put them or something. not all fo them are like this though. i guess god is really taking care of me. three of my 6 teachers are christians, and 2 of them go to my churh! its kind of strange-the public school system. the actual work is so simple and easy, but school itself just drains me. i guess the emotional energies required to process through ALL of the information thrown at me, deciphering what is really true from what is not makes up most of the pull. I have just made anastonishing revalation about the way they indocrinate everyone now though: it is not a frontal assault towards our eyes, ears, or any physical senses; it is a slow seeping stream of post-modern theology that soon becomes part of the very person, allowing them to make new judgements based on their new-found "knowlege". for example, in my tolerence class (english) we are not being taught directly that christians are bad, and homosexuality is not bad, and tolerence is the only way; we are learing about little changes of the conciousness that makes you more sympathetic towards those with differences. and i find nothing wrong with that. the bad part somes when i found myself sitting in church, and was thinking "how insular of him" (insular being our new vocabulary word that means close-minded). then i realized what was slowly happening to me and it is crazy how easily you can be pulled off course if your final destination is not constantly in front of you. Also, in little bible-belt oklahoma, the danger for me was to get sucked into complacency, and taking for granted the fact that I new the one true God. Here, i have to hang onto the fact that i know him, and he knows me, eveyday. That has to become a part of my very identity. I really have to make a concious decision to make time for god everyday, or else he WILL be put aside for "later". I do not pray that i will spend more time with god, i pray that he will give me a longing to be with him, beucae i do make time for things that i truely desire. i hope that i desire God above all else.

we are very actively involved int he church here, i have no idea how it all happened so fast, but now another girl and i are in charge of the youth band, my dad i the leader of the 9-10 grade guys, dad hasstarte a small group that is based on the book "the Case for a Creator" be Lee Strobel. Good book! anyway, there is a little update for everyone, and i hope to hear from you all soon!

love you guys,
Bri